aghh. we were supposed to have this flowergang lunch.
and now everyone is going to be late. or they're meeting their old friends. or they're having staff lunch. boohoo.

i hope i will get a phone call today. and the other party will go... "heyy girll.. happy birthday!" we ALL know who i want it to be. bahh!

oh my goodness. the excitement of being 18!!!!

thank you everyone for all the wishes and all in the past 4 hours or so. :)

thank you bev and min for the very cute 3 pairs of underwear, and the lovely earrings. thank you cain and jer for the very lovely mini cupcake surprise, and also for the tigger and the 2 banana in pjs finger puppet. ( i am still trying to convince myself that NO the banana gift is not supposed to be an insult!! cos banana in pjs are so dense and ditz! ) thank you laurence for the fragrance. now i will start having monday-sunday scents. thank you eve for the shoes that you got me last week. and no its not so me cos its so bitchy. its so me cos its... so nice! thank you mommy and jiejie for the very lovely tiffany bracelet. thank you junia for the baileys last night. ooops we finished the entire bottle. thank you ping for the cheeseballs and food last night. thank you mambo people for the treat at newton last night for amy and i! (we share the same bday!)

i am in love. in love with the scarlet hotel. its gorgeous. woohoo.

i love baileys!
lets have another bottle of baileys! on the rocks on the rocks!!

4 people drinking, a bottle of baileys!

im at home now with 6 other people.
cain junia bev min amy ping.

AND A BOTTLE OF BAILEYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


supper was so freaking good at newton with 6 bottles of beer and 4 people drinking.
lets drinkk!

tomorrow night, its the mambo birthday celebration supper!!
i cant wait!!! the ex, and present mambo staff are all going out to celebrate our birthdays! (amy and i!) yayyy!

bev "after that min and i can go over to your house!"
me "okayy!!"
bev "ehh wait.. can you invite us first?"
me "hey.. you guys wanna come over tomorrow night to sleep? haha."
bev "okayy.. then on thursday we bring you out okay?"

and on thursday i am meeting cheryl and belle for lunch in the afternoon!
then i am meeting wai!! whom ive not seen in ages!!
and then at night after 12 midnight.. i will be flashing my id. my id my id. my OWN id!!

and on friday, its the flowergang lunch! oh the love oh the joy!
and then its the usual mom's side bbq!!

i cannot wait! =p

my room is in a mess! big big mess but i am too lazy to move my fat fat ass to clear this big big mess!

i was just clearing out my shoes. its quite scary the amount of money i spent on shoes alone this year. at least a thousand bucks was on shoes.. damn scary. i could have bought the gucci tote bag with 1000 bucks. not just the gucci tote bag. but the IT gucci tote bag. why did i waste it all on shoes? whatever happened to my many pairs of "basic shoes, must buy must buy. will match with ANYTHING, EVERYTHING!"

in 2005,

i will stop buying shoes.
i will start saving money.
i will start saving money.
i will start saving money.
i will save money.
i will save money.
i will stop shopping.
i will and i must stop shopping.
i will and i must stop buying shoes.

on another note, pictures taken with the new phone are up!
under my webshots.. phone snaps!

i cannot wait for friday! =p

i skipped work today because i am having the worst cramps ever.
grrrowls.

and.. i said yes when my manager called me to ask whether when sch starts i am still able to work.
i am so screwed.

"daphne, you know what? yesterday i was thinking... its the 18th time im celebrating christmas.. but for you.. its only your 17th.."

!!!

yayy i didnt cry on christmas!
im so bloody proud of myself!

today no m1 sunshine guys or girls.
everyone was sooo sleepy. grouchy and everything.

im working on 1st and 2nd of jan. how fucked can i get..

"dear, is the vibrator working?"
this super bimbo lady asked her bf that when he was checking the nokia6230. i was serving them, so i tried not to laugh. but jasmine and darren who were on both sides on me started laughing. haa.


MERRY XMAS EVERYONEE!!!!

on class95, they're asking the listeners to call in and talk about their most memorable xmas.

i hate my most memorable xmas.
wait, lemme go on in self pity

hello kor, last year we had lunch at the noodle bar remember?
and you gave me a belt.
i thought it was the last time i was gonna see you cos you made me promise not to be at the airport on xmas. so i cried. quite badly.
how are you?

movie with tash was good.. she's total sweetness. wants everything! *like her aunty. bought her a pair of shoes, and a toga top. she wanted this doll house. but its really ugly. so in order to save her, i said NO. so after the movie, i brought her to bakersinn for choc cake. that girl so cute. "its very very yummy. are you sure you dont want a slice?"

i love my sister. i love my mom. i love my family.

ohhh yah the time table for next sem is out..
I HAVE NO SCHOOL ON THURSDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? THAT MEANS WEDNESDAY NIGHTS I CAN PLAYYYYY. anddd. every tuesday and wednesday i will have a 2 hour break. do what? parkway?

i miss my classmates!

christmas.... GO AWAY PWEEEEAAASSSEEEE!

last year, on the 22nd.. i had coffee at cafe211 and then i had dinner at bukittimah with the family.
its probably the last image i have of this family being together.
what happened? what went wrong?

i thought i was strong enough when i picked up the photo album.

but hell, no.

i dont know how im am going to get through christmas.
and yes you you you you and you are probably so sick and tired of me.
i wont mention anything from now on.

i feel so fucking alone.
everything has changed.
i am the most selfish person in this entire world.
dont be my friend.

the only thing that i can look forward to is, im watching the incredibles with tasha tomorrow in town. just me and her.

when i was a little girl, i adored december.
now at the age of 17, im sorry december. my infatuation with you has ended.

today has been such a bad bad day. 21st dec sucks.
so will 22nd, 23rd, 24th, and the 25th.

well actually this morning i felt quite down.
cos it suddenly dawned upon me how a year just flew by.
and i had my last family dinner a year ago at bukittimah.
and that is probably my last last LAST. and i will get no more in future. :(

so i was A TEENY WEEENY LITTTTLEEE BITTTT moody.
but i still had on my fake m1 sunshine girl smile. grin grin.

AND AT AROUND THREE FORTY FIVE.............................

this motherfucking indian man.. who lives at westville. phone number is 9474211* came into the shop.... and came to ME! fucker told me he lost his phone in a cab (fuck you ass, i dont give a shit where you lost your phone.) and was already SUPER rude. and so when i tried to explain to this motherfucker that he CANNNNOOOOTTTT get a phone at the advertised price because his contract is only 3 fucking months old! you need at least a contract of 13 months to get a phone at promotional price right?! (just agree. its m1's ruling.) so..... if that motherfucker wants a phone.. he will have to get it at the retail price.. MINUS 10 percent. and the very kind and fake sunshine girl, ME kindly told him to look around the shop.. tell me what phone he fucking is interested in.. AND I WILL TELL THE MOTHERFUCKER THE FUCKING PRICE. but noooo. he insists on ME showing him a SHOWCASE where the phone prices stated.. IS THE PRICE HE CAN GET IT FOR. but NO YOU ASSHOLE we dont LABEL our RETAIL prices. so i tried telling him NO NO NO there isnt such a showcase. he needs to get back to me. ITS THE NORM.

WHAT DOES HE DO?

scold me from the info counter (which is at the front of the shop) ALLLLLL the fucking way to the showcases. (which is at the back of the shop)..... WHILE EVERYONE WAS STARING AT HIM COS HE WAS SOME MAD FUCKING TALL INDIAN RICH MAN IN AN UGLY WHITE TEE AND TISSUE ON HIS FUCKING UNSHAVED BEARD..-----AND I WAS THIS STUPID GIRL THAT HAD TO KEEP QUIET.... WHAT THE FUCK. so he shouted... AND continued.. about how i am NOT pro and NOT this NOT that..... while i was at the verge of tears. when he was finally fucking done, i went to the storeroom to cry. fucking hell no one except my family members (u want to count mrs lee? hehh) has ever scolded me till i cry. and you're this fucking indian ass and you want to bully me.

so i went into the storeroom.. and the asst sup and logistic guy, hengmun and simon wanted to go and scold him in a super mean but tactful way. but guess what? that indian fucker saw them walking outta the storeroom looking pissed, he HURRIED AWAY. fucking wuss. ball-less indian fucker who lives in westville. fucker made me cry. dammit. of all days let me meet such horrid customers on days that i feel so down. days when all that is in my mind is last year last year last year. i am such a loser i swear.

ohhh. and there after, there were afew customers who saw and heard the man scolding me, told the full time staff.. "that girl very poor thing.. the man is crazy one.. shout so loud.. disgrace indians." and afew other comments lah. but singaporeans being singaporeans, all say say only. none did anything.

NOOOOOOO WAITTTTTT. that is not the end to daphne's fucking bad day. bestest start to xmas sadness.

at NINE fucking PM.. she did a COE (change of equipment) for this lady called CHUA **** THOR. the stupid bitch insisted that we sold her an old phone. so fine i change it for you. (she lives in jurong west street 71.) then fucking hell doing exchange that time.. i got confused with the new box and old phone. (i admit.. MY BAD MY BAD MY FAULTT!!!!!) soooooo. while she was holding on to her new phone in her hand, i went to accidently pass the cashier the OLD BOX WITH THE OLD PHONE for her to cash it out..... SO MEANING THIS CHOU AUNTY HAD 2 PHONES. ONE BOX. GETTTIT????? andddd. after she left for like 10 mins, then i realised that the box that i took to the storeroom was EMPTY. UH OH. DAPHNE IS IN DEEEEEP SHIT COS THE PHONE IS FUCKING WORTH 698. KNN STUPID UGLY SIEMENS PHONE. so she checks with cashier. cashier said.. cashier opened the box.. showed customer that phone is inside the box. customer nods. KNN WANT TO CHEAT IS IT. YOUR HAND GOT ONE.. SEE ANOTHER JUST NOD. FUCKER USING CITIBANK GIRO. GOT MONEY STILL SO GREEEEDY. so she calls the customer straight away. ringringringring..... never answer.. 2 times.. ringringring..... CUT ME OFF... 3 times.. ring...... cut off. ring...... cut off. MANY TIMES. -phone switched off- JACKPOT... fucker guilty. FINE NEVER MIND!!! check system.. CALL HER SUB LINE NUMBER!!!!! -using phone tt doesnt have pte number.- ringgg ringggg ringgggggggg. NO ANSWER. MANY TIMES!!!!!!! -using phone with pte number.- RINGGGG. "HELLOO????"

motherfucker. act blur.... only after we sent her the sms that we have the video to show that i did pass her the wrong box, and the cashier did show her the contents of the box.... did she reply. "im sick cannot answer phone i will give phone back weekend." KNN. then we said we go her hse and take. fucker never reply. fuck you you whore. dont make me go ur hse and haunt you cos i aint gonna come out with 698 bucks to let you enjoy another phone bitch.

so now i pray that bitch wont twist and turn story.... and say she dont have the phone. anyway we have the video you fucking 1964 bitch. dont make us report to the police. ass bitch.

HAIYA. BAD BAD BAD DAY. BOOOOHOOOOOOO.
TOMORROW.......... WILL BE THE ONE YEAR ANNI SINCE MY LAST FAM DINNER AND PICTURE...................................................

HAIYAAAAAAA. FUCK LAH.

today is a good day! yayy yayyy!

i got my first two birthday presents!!
a charm bracelet from my mom and sis.
a pair of nice pretty white shoes from eve.

and i bought the top that ive been eyeing on for the past 1 week!


and and and..... im BROKE! yippeee!

i want to buy many many many things! boohoo! =((

somehow i am looking forward to xmas.
but then again, i know how upset i will be on that day.

hello kor, i miss you so much. its been almost a year since you left.
1 year 3 months since you dropped the bomb that you're leaving.

have you noticed?

i sold two PDAs again today.
poor ladies who bought it from me. i was super clueless.

TOMORROW IS MY OFF DAY!!!

i dont want the 22nd to come. sigh.

work was so fun today.
i like work when there isnt any fucking lil prince!
i sold 2 PDAs today!!!!!!!!! poor couple who bought it from me. spent 2000+ bucks on some clueless sales person. and i sold one PDA yesterday too. today was the O2 XDA mini. its damn nice. i want to get it too! so that i can errr. use the calender function and errrrrr. hahaha.

last night was quite bad.
i couldnt sleep and there were so many things going through my mind.
i thought of running. i like running when im crying. its damn fun. i like to run run run run run.

the new nokia 7280 looks like a....... vibrator. hahAaaA.
im serious. we were playing around with it in the storeroom. (no, not playing playyyyingggg.) alicia and i had the most interesting conversation on the bus ride home about asses. and...... ohsohotmanager.

exactly a year ago, i left eastwoods after 2 days of holding back my tears.

a year has passed. so many things has changed.

fuck you lil prince.
ive had enough. you're gonna get the worst present ever for christmas.
i swear i never had to do sales at the sales counter, and then find out that im responsible for housekeeping and fucking top up. WHYYY? because our dear lil prince is far too precious to be doing anything. he is only bright enough to sort out papers!

i had such a great morning. havent seen the girls in about a week and yah they're sooo adorable.
but such a horrid night.
i was THIS close to crying. hate it. fuckyoufuckyou. motherfucker. or rather, sisterfucker.

im working on xmas eve and xmas. WHATTHEFUCK. aiyah fuck it. i want to skip work on xmas and go to the airport. mh608 anyone?

i sense a damn bad weeeeeek ahead.
and i hate it. im working so much i cant even REST.

yayy the girls are here! i love them so much!!! =)
havent seen them in about a week. tasha said the cutest thing just now.

"aunty daph, how come the last 2 days i never see you here?"
oh.. because i was working..
"then you come home very late?"
yes..
"how late? 12? 1?"
about 12?
"what time did you sleep?"
1 something? haha.
"i know... you were on the computer then you go and sleep right?"

i just got home from work..
finished at 1130 and took a cab back cos i was wayyy too tired.

i left at 1130, and still had to do housekeeping before i left even though i was at the sales counter. why? because mister prince temp staff didnt even top up anything, didnt even take water to clean the things. asshole. MEN.. agh, or rather.. BOYS..........

ive got work later. at 5pm. boohoo. waste of my 5 hours only.

anyway the whole world seems to be buying new phones nowadays. im serious.
on tuesday night, there was about 126 people in queue at 9pm when we closed our shutters. from 8.30pm, i stood next to the queue system to tell people that waiting time is about 2 hours, perhaps it would be better to come back the next day.. but guess what? they didnt mind. they say.. "never mind. just wait." and on tuesday evening, alicia and i were cursing and swearing in the storeroom. so many fucking irritating customers. i swear the crowd at m1 is like errr.. zouk on wednesdays before it got so packed.

hey you you you you, can you stop buying phones PLEASE!

as cheesy and cliche this may sound, all i want for christmas is you.

i spent ALLLL my pay. BAHHH. =(

i cut and colored my hair today. now i have orange hair!
why orange? because i am m1's sunshine girl!!! okie im kidding.
ray wanted ash. but my hair has been glossed 2-3 months back.. so its damn hard to get the color. so he suggested copper orange and since ive done green, blue, red and purple... why not orange! heh.
feels weird to pay to do my hair.
for the first time this year, i actually paid to do sth to my hair. woohoo.

i still want the gucci handphone strap. i want i want i want.

mambo mambo mambo. the crowd was nuts as usual. the past 4 weeks has been crazy. previously before that it wasnt so bad. okayy. time to look for a new place.
many many martinis at member's. they bought 3 bottles.. and mixed like nobody's business. denise chua, if you're reading this.. you okay or not??
for once....... i was the most un-high one between denise and cat. yes yes yes? hahahha.
i hate martell. YUCKKK. i love lychee martinis!!
oh yah and because the toilet at zouk and phuture were both so packed, clever ziqin, cat, iforgothername and i went to winebar. and guess what? there was a queue too! guess we arent the only clever ones around! anyway the 3 girls (us lah!) needed to pee quite badly and we asked ziqin whether there was anyone in the gents. he said no and whambang we rushed into the gents and 3 of us squeezed into one cubicle while we all took turns to pee. so we started talking. until we realised that any guy who comes in to pee will know that there are girls in there. so we kept really quiet. and then we heard the door.. and we went like.. shit there are people in here. so when we're done peeing and everything else, we opened the cubicle and rushed out. much to the amazement of some guys and the "wahlaos" we heard...

its time i stop sneaking in to the gents... yes eve?

bedtime, work tomorrow.

tomorrow sounds good.
i have an appointment at 3 to cut my hair at toni&guy.
and im meeting cain, bev and min.
and and ........ its my off day!
and and and................. im getting my pay tomorrow!!!

oh the joy!

wednesday, come.

16th and 17th, go away.
you remind me of the airport.
we took a train there. i was so amazed at the beauty of the airport's mrt station.
"girl, you mean youve never taken a train to the airport yet?"
"my sister wants to take a picture everywhere."

at night, while enlai, jerrold and you were out in the living room smoking, i saw your gucci organiser. i opened it and saw my passport photo, mom's photo and jiejie's photo. at the back of my mind during that 2 days, i kept telling myself to treasure the time spent with you. because it was gonna be the last time i stayed at eastwood. i want to hear your rendition of silent night.

work tomorrow. bah.
i miss kyra and tash. havent seen them for quite awhile.

mh608? on you please?

hi.. new line or upgrade?
what phone are you getting?
any problems with the phone please go to the service centre. not here.
can you sign over here, this is a 2 years contract. within this 2 years no change of ownership, no termination of line. otherwise penalty of $300 will be charged.
can i have your i/c please?

im going nuts!!!

YAYYY TOMORROW IS MY OFF DAY!!! IM GOING TO GO SHOPPING!!!! I PRAY THAT MY PAY IS IN!!!!!!!! YAYYYYY!!!!!!!! AND I HAVENT SMOKED IN ALMOST A WEEK!!!! YAYYY!!!!!!!!!!

my phone is crazy.
i dont know how to use it. it is too smart. what fucking symbian. agh.
and the data cable sucks!

happypill!

work today was busy busy busy.
i prolly rolled my eyes a thousand times.
muttered "fuck" a hundred times.. and bitched about customers in the store toom prolly ten times.

thank god i got all the nice people when i used the queue system thingy!

my brother and tash are both outta hospital! YAYY!

i wanna get 7260. just for the fashion converter thing. how dumb is that.. and i want it for the lovely charger and the lovely gift pack that comes with it. it has a booklet full of dammit good vouchers.
i want everything but the phone. hahaha.

im thinking of selling my 2 day old phone.
its too smart.. damn hard to use!

i reckon tomorrow, m1 will have plenty of good deals.
trust me....

i just pray that the price of the 7610 BETTER REMAIN AT 500 BUCKS OTHERWISE I WILL MURDER MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this week, my only two off days were on monday and friday.

monday, tasha got admitted into thomson medical.
friday, david korkor got admitted into national uni hospi.

three cheers daphne. i think you're under some curse.
your next off day is on monday. the 13th. whos turn is it now? take queue number okay?

thank you misslow for your timely invitation to supper.
you always see through me. hrrm thats good and bad!
thank you for hearing me whine. yes you are right, i know whats right and whats wrong. evaluation time? yupp.

i hope tomorrow will be a better day.

i love my sister so much. she is the tower of strength in this family.
i love my mom sooo much. what will we be without her?
i realised that i actually care quite abit for my brother, david. which is surprising because i never had a good relationship with him. he was always too strict with me. i hope this incident made us understand each other better.

hey pa, i hate you. im sorry but i hate you.
danny korkor, where are you?

anyone wanna work? i need ten boys.. or rather im helping my sister's good friend to look for ten boys. commit for at least 3 months. job scope, sales..

PLEASE CALL ME ASAP. 94359602

i knew yesterday was too good to be true.
how can i buy a new phone and know what i want for my birthday? things will never look so good for you. there must be something to put me down.

my eldest bro is in the hospital. a&e. please pray its not cancer. although i used to curse and swear behind his back, this year i realised that he actually cares alot. actually i knew that all along but i was just denying it. fuck. i pray he will be okay.

december has been so bad.
i dont know whether i can take the rest of the blows Mr December has in store for me.
i can already imagine how bad 25th is gonna be. i want to go to the airport and fly away.

i am so tired.
so tired of crying already. wipe these tears and i pray that one day in december, i will smile again. i am so tired of everything.

i hate you december.

i finally visited tash today with beks. =) yayy. she is better. well enough to whisper to me that she wants 2 balloons.. and remind me not to let her mom know that she asked for them. thats my lil angel. heh.

and i know what i want from my mom for my 18th already!! the tiffany charm bracelet that ive been wanting to get since forever. it has the words newyork tiffany&co inscribed in it. was thinking of carving sth to remind me that its my 18th present. yayy more tiffany!! either that or a gucci wallet. still deciding. hrrm.

and i got a new phone!! yayyyY! but the problem is.... the phone is too smart for me. i dont really know how to use it! dammit!! i dont even know how to transfer files. today is such a good day.

but only todayyyy.!

i want to spend christmas in the airport.
i want to steal my mom's credit card and buy an air ticket.

and then and then.. i will fly far far away.
and i will only come back when things are merry.

fuck, i am so damn selfish.

its getting harder and harder to smile.. because christmas is just 16 days away.
no matter how plastic i can get.. its still so damn hard. fuck.
sometimes i wish im working everyday. then i can work my ass off, and prolly blow my money all on my birthday shopping again. but then again, when im working.. im doing fucking customer service. dammit bitch i am not so free to take phones out for u to try. fuck it ass hole can you wait for your turn and no i wont help you configure your mms. and no aunty, we dont give out free vouchers. stop listening to the people in the market. you want vouchers they can be bought over the cashier counter. can choose got 50 or 100. you want free phone is it? yes can.. sign another two lines, take the phone and shut up. free phone where got so good got bluetooth, video, radio etc.. you dreaming is it uncle? and im sorry mdm, sim card is chargeable at $31.50 and i really dont care if other dealers offer them to you free.. go back to them lah! ah soh, i dont care if custsvc specially handled your case. you still have to get a freaking queue number. wahlao so pretty watch so nice bag so nice.. bimbo like hell. doode, its signing on another two years.. and no....... we wont charge you more per month in your bill. aunty, ke yi bu yao yi zi taptap wo mah. hen fan ni dong mah! and of cos there are very nice customers who really appreciate us. give us hearty smiles.. patient.. and there are very nice kids too like this 4 year old girl called chloe i met today. and yes.... aunty, i dont care where you lost your phone. just pass me ur freaking i/c.. and student pass holders and work permit holders, POBA POBA POBA. open your freaking eye and dont tell me you want to see my manager cos!!!!! its the same! POBA!!!

everyone asked me this afternoon.. "you just woke up?"

??????

today was such a grouchy day.
thank god for ivan, alan, pat and jas who made work a whole lot better.

gonna visit tash tmr morning..
called her today.. so poor thing she just cried.. and she wants 2 balloons! powerpuff and barbie.

im so fat now the scales are gonna be spoilt soon. sigh.

dear god, i pray that all my friends around me will remain strong and healthy and let no virus get to them. amen.

min is in hospital too. appendix.
tash is still in hospital. tonsils. she still has high fever and i dont think the doctor is gonna remove her tonsils because she is only 5. so i guess she will be another danny. living with tonsils.

poor min, hope she will be okay too.

tomorrow, its thomson medical centre and singapore general hospital.
today, its m1 sunshine girl. comon girl, plastic plastic.

natasha wong ling, be strong okay? i love you baby. 

my dad is such a fucking grouch. especially recently.
sometimes, i get so fucking sick and tired of this house.. i wish im dead.
i love everyone at home alot. (not only home, even those at parkview and newyork.)
but everyone is just so bitter. so am i. why cant we be a ohsohappy family?

the last time we had a family dinner was 22nd december 2003.
that was also the last time we took a family picture. till this day, the picture is still in my wallet. i dont know how things turned out this way. perhaps its God's will. but sometimes i get so angry and pissed with God because he is making me go through all this shit. but then again, its just me being selfish and self centered. but, God.. why? how did things turn out this way? i look at us now, and my heart aches. but there is nothing i can do. okay maybe perhaps there is. but i am so fucking tired of trying. i suck at being the middle person. i am so sick and tired i want to get out of this place and not come back.

i have the greatest mom in the entire world. no one comes close.
i also have the most giving sister.

sometimes i feel so blessed. sometimes i feel like im cursed.

seeing tasha shiver and cry just now broke my heart. again, i question.. why her? she is such a clever and active 5 year old girl. this is her third time being admitted to the hospital in a year. shes my sweet lil girl who says and does the sweetest things at times. her temperature was about 41 d. that is so fucking bad. why her.. why tash? that poor girl hasnt eaten icecream or drank cold drinks in months. i still remember the joy on her face the last time she was allowed to eat icecream.

tash, i love you okay.? please be strong. for your mommy and daddy. for your lil sis who is waiting for you at home. for us. okay? when you get well i will bring you for a movie and buy you toys. just be strong for now okay baby?

please pray for tasha. she is in the hospital, again. 3rd time in a year.
this time for tonsils.

my poor poor baby. sigh.
see, i knew december is just gonna be full of bad stuff.

i was asked why i sounded so upset on the phone.
for the first time in almost a year, my brother called me.

i had nothing to say on the phone.
nothing.

my life is in a mess now.
big big mess.
go away go away.

sorry sorry sorry.

bev and min are the sweetest cos they surprised me at work and still had to wait 30 mins before i could go for a short break.

i was reading the papers, there was this section those stars commented about their worst and best christmas.

ask me about my worst.
2003 christmas. at the airport.
i miss you....

i cant sleep! dammit. and i have to wake up at 8am for church tomorrow. deliver kyra's birthday present after church. and be at work by 1.15pm. work my ass off till 10plus. and then rush home for irene's bbq. and then eve is coming over. and the next day i have e community thingy at redcross home.

i need sleep. dammit. its time i go get some lavender scents.

total cuteness. she is already two years old! woohoo! 

work was ohsotiring today. we had 80 people in queue. again i question.. WHY IS EVERYONE GETTING NEW PHONES.. IM JEALOUS!!!!!!! its zoukout night! everyone's at zoukout! haha. and im blogging! stupid cain.. called me from there. agh.

HAPPPPPYYYY 2ND KYRA WONG LI ANN!!!! I LOVEEEE YOUUU!!!!!!! MWAHHH* PLEASE BE A GOOD GIRL AND DONT GROW UP TO BE LIKE ME!!! LOVE YOU LOVE YOU MY SWEET LIL ANGEL.

and yes happy 18th irene!

see, friday flew past again. wham bang poof boohoo.

work was so fucking busy i didnt even have time to go to the toilet. WHY IS EVERYONE BUYING PHONES??

you know after about a month at work, i know everyone so much better. the good and the bad. the ugly and the uglier ones. you: fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you. stop acting like you're some big fuck cos you're not. and stop asking us to fucking do our things quickly if you want us to do housekeeping. fuck you fuck you. we dont get our pay from your fucking payslip so stop checking our punch cards. you are so fucking fake for xmas i want to get you a plastic making machine. im sure you will be rich cos you're so fucking plastic. stop looking up from your fucking counter to check on us. i will tell the whole world that you have a girlfriend and a daughter. i wonder why your wife left you. fuck you. you: fuck you bloody asshole. we do everything. you stand and do nothing. you think you're some kinda superstar? dream on lil fucker. how the fuck can you go home so early today when we're not done with housekeeping? and stop being such a know it all cos if it werent for us, you would have gotten into shit with customers. you're such a big time slacker just because you think your sis is working in the same shop so what? dont make me do the extreme. fuck you. yuck and i am working with you next week for two days. oh save me. i want to go far away from you. bugger off lil child. you: fantastic plastic machine. bitch. all the cover up. ha! sorry bitch but we, the temp staff happen to have a tight bond.

after the sunset is a super no meaning waste money show. no matter how nice the shots may seem on the m1's plasma tv. i think its cos work is too boring, any movie on the plasma will look good.

went to town just now. saw sooooo many people taking pictures and all. the crowd was horrible. so many people.. gosh. and its only thursday doodes! i was asked.. "so what did you do last christmas?" i smiled and said.. nothing much. i forgot.. i am such a liar.

just got home. tonight was one of the worst nights in zouk. the crowd was..... overflowing. phuture had to be closed for awhile. zouk was crazy. the outside of zouk was madness.
should have just went to rouge or something.

and!! i am so not going to zouk anymore until i turn 18.
im serious. i hate answering questions about my id. fuckk.

anyway supper was superr funny. i ate carrot cake and thought it was fish. and no i wasnt drunk or even high cos i didnt even drink a single drop of alcohol today. geylang is so fun at night!!!

tomorrow is my last off day before i get ohsobusybusy with work work work and missions.